I think theres something wrong with me? How can God love me?

i dont know what to do! im fourteen and just like everything is changing on me... I sin all the time and i hate the sins ive done!! like... uncontrollable thoughts like.. ual thoughts about my own ( im not lez or bi or anything!! i cant controlle these stupid thoughts and feelings i HATE THEM!! i like GUYS!!) also.. bad thoughts about God(uncontrollable) .. its like mostly sins in my head! its like im trying to fight them but i dont know what to do!! could it be my hormons?? and also ive gotta drunk before and smoked and just IM HORRIBLE! and latley my faith has been low cause one of my friends said all these reasons on why Gods not real and im just so lost.! i feel empty when i try to pray to Jesus. I think im going to hell now :( what do i do?? How can Jesus love ME?